We all have questions.

I'm confused about the nature of the modern world and how we live in it. We either have no drive or passion to really live and explore and do things with our lives, or we're driven for all the wrong reasons and don't even know why we're intent on being what we're trying to become and we feel void of happiness because we're not really living the way people should be, which is from the heart. Why do we work a job we hate just to save up money for no reason and put value on what we're told to put value on and go through each day being successful from the world's perspective but rotting on the inside, because sometimes a moment comes and hits us and we see what we're doing and what we're becoming and we hurt because it's not what our heart wants, we just were too weak to follow it and instead followed our idea of what the world wants from us. And that leaves us dry inside and wasted outside. We can't do that and we can't waste time, because we don't know how much of it we have and the world is a treasure chest brimming over with opportunity and we can pick and choose them and win and lose them and every jewel is a promise, not for worldly success, but for a chance to flourish and feel alive. The world says we fail? Then we take a different gem. We cannot fail. We can stop trying and we can reject opportunity. But life is not a win or lose game. It's a sit or run game. Either sit stagnantly and hopelessly or run with wide arms to catch what the air has for you and breathe it into your lungs and capture it there inside you until you must burst it out and take another gulp. Why don't we all live like this? Are we followers at heart or leaders? Are we scared of the world or overwhelmed by it? Do we listen to our insides churning and showing the truth of ourselves or do we swallow the words read and voices heard and take in all that is outside, becoming then something outside of ourself instead of pouring ourselves out into the world to evoke change? We have it all backwards. Who would each of us be without any influence but ourselves? We build ourselves out of others. Is that necessarily wrong? I don't think so. But it's sometimes sad, because in the midst of that we lose our heart and how to recognize it's pulse and we become very, very lost.